Here I am. One step closer to my dreams.

Its been almost two months since I have reached Cardiff, Wales, United Kingdom. I am currently a student of Cardiff Metropolitan University, a very fortunate scholar of Erasmus Mundus Interweave Exchange Program.

Life has not been easy here. This is my first time travelling alone to a western country, I had quite alot of culture shock, and of course, pressurized by assignments, the study system here, and also deeply missing my family and friends. I have been emotional, had few times of breakdown since I have been here. I can really understand how students study abroad can be so much more independent than local students. It is not easy being an international students. I thought I can learn and mix well with the locals, but the reality is always the opposite.

Love or relationship problems are also one of my barriers. I have let go all, which makes me felt so regretful at times. But no choice, that the only thing i can sacrifice to achieve my dreams. I am not stable, how can I afford to care about other people, and let the people I loved grief in pain while I am being negligence or busy with my own adaptation? Selfish or not, its up to individual understanding.

I know its time to pick up, hope everything is not too late. I got lots more things to settle, to do, to complete. Datelines are approaching, but I am far left behind. All i have to say is, come on, Sharon, you've come this far, pick yourself up. Nobody is going to help you here, but dont ever lose hope, you still have yourself. You might not be the best, but at least, you've tried your best, dont let yourself down. People might not know your suffering and you are struggling with your own emotions, no point telling and explaining to people who doesnt care. I love all who loved me, and its up to them to believe. I am cold and do not easily express myself well, but someday I hope they will still remember me for who I am. I will always be there for you all, when I have the ability, and when you all need me. Thank you for being part of my journey.

To the one I have always been waiting for, I promise to improve myself, and to learn, before I am able to take care of you, if you are coming back. It's okay if you did not, I know who means the best to you. Just want you to know, you are The Ceaseless Affection. Take care.

What more can I complain other than appreciate this opportunity, I wanna be part of the people helping the people out there, but first, I have to get myself with adequate knowledge to do so. All the best in life. :D