pspm1 just around the corner.

i've been thinking for a long time... wat really happen to me this year ?
i can say that not much things went on smoothly..as wat i wanted to be.
i tried to move on, but i feel that i have lost the strength and the confidence to do everything.
i nearly gave up in everything. but i know i cant.
i'm working on it... i'm trying... but somehow i need really more rest.
but without sacrificing something, without the determination how could i continue to achieve my dreams. can anyone really give me words of wisdom ?
i need friends. everyone one of them. i am nearly dropping out in my studies.
i try to be independent, but the more i am alone, the more i feel depressed.
really hope that i can score good grades in this coming exam.
i dont wanna disappoint my family.
no matter how pressured i am.
i hope i can make it. and stop being lazy and emotional.
it deteriorates me. :(