challenges in life.

Harsh life in matriculation college for me.
taking care about studies. relationships, health...etc.
i wish i could have been more understanding. and i will if i am clear about what is really happening.
i need someone too.
i wish i could have a fren.
i wish i wouldn't be misunderstood,
just because maybe i really dont have a really close fren.
i envy because i dont have one.
i am jealous because you've been a good fren to me, but yet, u choose to be good fren of others.
i wish i could turn back the clock. and control my own feelings and emotions.
i wish i could gain back your trusts. having the times we were joking, chatting and making fun of each other happily.
i wish i could have someone to hug on too.
i know i need to study, but i need a fren too.
i dont really wish everyone beside me would be unhappy.
i hate to let go, cause it is a really hard thing to me.
i dont wanna lose any fren.
i am envy when other people have their own best frens.
while i dont have one to talk to when i face challenges.
i wish you could hear and listen to me.

experiences will make one awake, but when will i be awake.
i wish i could mend every mistakes.
and be like before as what we were.

actually i know im bad, but i can be not that bad too.